So I'm Procrastinating My Homework....

Ok, at work, nothing to do really. I mean, I guess I could find something, but I really should be doing homework. Haha rigggghhhhttt. Homework. At work. Yeah, not very motivated to do that. So instead I decided to take a look at what the 'perfect,' organized, balanced person should be doing everyday. Take a look:

Sleep 8 hrs a night x 7 nights - 56 hrs.

Work - 20 hrs.

School 15 credit hours - roughly 14 hrs.

Homework 3 hrs. per every hour in class - 45 hrs.

Eating and food prep. at least 30 min. 3 times a day - 10.5

Exercise at least 1 hr. a day - 7 hrs.

Transportation - we all gotta get where we need to go right? - maybe an hr. a day - 7 hrs.

Church attendance, activities, and calling responsibilities - 6 hrs.

Service hours - 3 hrs.

I think that about sums the basics up, so if we add it all up we come up with.....168.5 hrs a week.

BUT WAIT!!!

There are only 168 hours a week!

And what about my getting ready for the day time....

        And that time I need to run errands...       

                 And my showering time....

                         And time to clean my apartment.....

                                 And wind down time.....

                                          And time for scripture study....

                                 And time to talk with my roommates...

                        And  time for weekend (or weekday) parties...

               And time to call/visit/socialize with a friend...

     And what about time for "wholesome recreational activities"...

And time to relax...

Hmmm....seems to me that there's no way on earth to ever accomplish everything like we are supposed to. There's no way anybody could do everything with the amount of time we're given.  I guess that's where prioritizing comes in. Do what's most important, and do what you can, then let go of the rest.

I Want To Thank You

This will be brief, but I really just want to say that I really do have wonderful friends and family. Throughout my life I have always been surrounded by wonderful people. I am so so grateful to each and everyone of them who has influenced my life for the better. I honestly don't think I have ever had to make that hard decision to change my group of friends, and I believe that is because I have been so blessed in my life to have such amazing people surround me.

I love you all. I truly do.

          I wish I knew how to express that to you.

                     I guess the best I can do now is just say, "Thank You!!"

                                  If you are reading this, you are one of these friends who has been an influence for good in my life.

                          So again, I want to thank you.

Thank you for always being willing to try in life. Thank you for having a good attitude about things. Thank you for sharing your hardships as well as your goodships with me. Thank you for making this wonderful gospel a part of your life. Thank you for being you.

Please, please, please let me know if there is anything I can ever do, anything that would even make up a small part for what you have done for me.

Oh confusion...just means I'm ready to learn right?

    Relationships are great areas for learning, and I've learned a lot about myself over the past month and a half. The time's been filled with a lot of new experiences, new emotions, and new situations. It's been a period of learning, growth, and new realizations. I think I have reached a point where, for the first time in my life, I need to make a decision for myself and no one else. I've never done this before because I've always kind of lived off of the expectations of my parents and family, which was not bad then. I wanted to do what they wanted me to do because I knew they wanted what was best for me in their hearts.
                             Beyond my parents, I always tried to do what God wanted me to do. I don't think I really understood the concept though. What I wanted was for God to tell me what to do, and then I knew I would do it. The problem with that though, is that I now think that part of this life is learning to make our own decisions that are in accordance with God's will, and not do things because God gives us specific directions in everything we need to do. I think that God has given each of us the tools we need to make decisions (He gave us agency as well as the Light of Christ). In addition to that, He has given me the Gift of the Holy Ghost to have with me at all times if I am righteous. Thus He has given me everything I need to make my own decisions.
                This is a new concept for me, I am not sure if I have ever asked myself what I want. So, what do I want? I'm not entirely sure. How can I make a decision if I don't know what I want? I mean, I could make a good decision based off of what I know my parents, God, or other people want. But what is the best decision? I guess that's what I want; to make the best decision I can, and in order to do so I need to know what I truly desire.

I need to find out where my heart is.

                                                                           How? 

I honestly do not know, but I am going to find out...somehow.

I love this journey and everything in it. So much. Life is filled with so many wonderful experiences and learning opportunities. Some may be hard, some may hurt, some may tear me apart, but God changes me in each situation so I come out of it stronger. He knows the perfect balance I need so that the joyous experiences which promote little learning always balance out the difficult experiences of much growth so that I can go on in life with a hope for the future.